Divine Celebration

Sorry for the late post. I did draw a card yesterday, but didn't get to blogging.
Yesterday was divine celebration, and I confess that I did not find much to celebrate. Just wasn't focused

I am so ready to celebrate SPRING. Where is it already? Granted it didn't stick on the ground, but there was too much snow yesterday for my liking! All the poor robins just look flabbergasted!

Divine will

Divine will is difficult for me, because it means giving up, or trying to give up, control. Divine will is to let go of your own agenda, and follow the path that is set out for you, whether you know it or not. I don't like not knowing. I like having a plan. I like putting together a sequence of events, and having them follow through. So to follow divine will means...wait that can't even work. You can't follow divine will, you have to allow divine will to lead you. To follow would mean making the choice, to be led means giving up control.
So far I haven't been led anywhere specifically. But tonight I have my first meeting with a scrapbooking/card making group that I found. I wonder where the night will lead.

Did you miss me?

I am so out of practice. But I guess the universe knew that. Today I was divine mystery. I have located my cards (not under the bed, as I thought, there lie mysteries for another day, but just under a pile of books and papers on my bedside table). Divine Mystery seems to be one of the "freebie" cards - allowing yourself to just be open, and go the way the wind blows, rather than focusing on a specific quality. I think it was easier to keep "Divine Mystery" at the forefront of my mind, rather than something more concrete (the abstract concrete, does that exist? That sounds like a philosophy book "The Abstract Sidewalk"). It was a good way to ease back into something that should really be a daily practice. Freakishly enough, it was exactly one year ago today that I went to my first soul coaching session with Kimberly Carroll, which started this whole ball rolling...I didn't even think about that til now, and just went to check my e-mails (I don't delete anything other than junk mail), and confirmed that yes indeed, it was April 14, 2010. Other odd coincidence...when I drew today's card, I half wondered if it was going to be my old friend "divine witness", and if Iwas going to have to start all over again with that card. As Iput my cards back in the box, I found that there was one card stuck in the box still, I flipped it over, it was divine witness :) Other mysteries today...where to "Temp" documents go when you save them???? I have an interview on Tuesday, and the company sent me several evaluations to fill out. I did so, and saved them, and then couldn't find them to save my life when I went to attach them to my reply e-mail. After much searching, restrained desires to hurl the computer across the room, and a string of words that I'm sure my parents don't know that I know, I had to start over again. All I can think is that maybe I did a little better the 2nd time around. Maybe that was something to be open to today.

The case of the disappearing blog entry

I was so sure that I had hit "publish post" after my little update. I have not been living divinely...my cards have divinely disappeared (I think they might be under the bed in that one spot that I just cannot reach, but I cannot see, and I haven't figured out how to get under there yet...) Barbara has actually developed an iPhone app, and I should just download that instead in the meantime. But in my absence from this blog, I have indeed been keeping myself occupied, and have been tracking my creative efforts at www.sarahprocrastinating.blogspot.com if you want to see what's been going on :)

long time no see

I haven't forgotten this blog! I have been drawing cards, and trying to get in touch with my divine side. Honestly I feel like I slept walked (is that the proper past tense of sleep walk??) through the past week or so... I don't know where the time has gone. I can't say that I've done anything stellar, just feeling that the days have gotten away from me.
Today was divine patience. I'm learning that the name of the card isn't necessarily what you would think it is by the traditional definition of the word. On mornings when I've thought that the day would be especially trying, I've wondered if I would get divine patience, reminding me of a virtue that sometimes I possess, sometimes I don't, depending on the situation. Divine patience goes beyond taking a deep breath and counting to 10. Divine patience means waiting for, and accepting the fact that the universe has it's own timing, and doesn't need to be rushed or pushed.
This has been a good card for me. I had a job interview last week, which seemed to have gone well. I heard from the placement agency that had positive feedback, but one of the people who makes the hiring decisions has been out of town on business this week, and so there probably won't be an answer until Monday. This has been a reminder that the world unfolds at it's own pace, not mine.

Sometimes God just laughs...

Today was divine consciousness- trying to feel the connection between me and the universe. Trying to listen to what the universe had to tell me, trying to tell the universe what I needed.
While working out at the gym, I conversed with the universe about needing strength to keep going on (I'm working out with an intensity/frequency that is new to me). While waiting to go into my interview with the placement agency, the request was for clear thoughts and good communication. On the drive home, good opportunities and a good match was on tap.

Me and the universe one on one allowed for divine consciousness. Apparently, conversations with real people is too much for me (not the interview, that went well).

My sister is getting married in April. I am one of the bridesmaids.
My sister has looked at a few bridesmaid dresses, and has a clear favourite. Our difference is that her number one choice is my last choice. If she asks that we wear that one, I will, and will have a smile on my face. When my opinion was asked for, and it was given, I did say that it wasn't my favourite.
When we spoke today, we were son entrenched in our own corners that we weren't listening to, or hearing each other. It took my other sister, on different phone calls to make me see that.

I wasn't open to divine consciousness when I needed to be.

Decisions, decisions

Today was about being divine decision. I'm trying to put this into practice. I was so out of it today, I saw my cards this evening and thought "crap, I forgot to draw a card this morning". Only to really, really think about it, and finally look at the top card to say "yep, I drew that this morning". Most of my decisions were about getting up, getting dressed, cleaning out the cat litters and finally taking the garbage out for garbage day.
I think (hope?)that divine decision will play a bigger role later this week. I have an interview tomorrow with a placement service, and they have a specific position in mind. It's not customer service, which is the essentially my number one priority. I am customer serviced out. The customer service well has run dry. And if anyone out there is in customer service...isn't it frustrating when you call/go somewhere and need customer service, and it seems that the customer service you get is always of a quality that you are pretty sure you would get fired if you were the one delivering that attitude. And that further drains the well, at least in my case. I don't want to just take the first job for the sake of taking a job. And yes, I'm getting ahead of myself here, as I haven't even had an interview yet. But I am starting to go stir crazy at home, and some routine and human contact would not be unwelcome. Hopefully, the stars are aligning, and this will be a good thing. Time will tell.