To do step b, you need to have a step a

Today I drew Divine Committment. The idea is to ask yourself if your actions support your committment.
The flaw in this process is that first you have to commit to something!
This made me think of other things in my life. I have never been very good at goal setting. I have no tolerance for delayed gratification. I don't like waiting for things. I like planning for things, but once the planning is done - that's it - I want action. Even if I get an advent calendar (yes, I am late 30's , and I still get myself an advent calendar sometims, wanna make something of it?) I actually consider it a huge personal triumph if I manage to eat all the chocolates on the appointed day, and not all at once, or borrowing ahead by a few days. I put off, with too much ease things that I don't want to do, and am all to eager to do what I want to now.
So, homework (which I never did when I was in school, hope it can change now) is to figure out what I want to commit too...then I will be ready for Divine Committment the next time it comes around.

Divine Grace

I pulled out my deck this morning...been some time since I had done that. I have been feeling quite isolated and disconnected lately...part of it I know is because Andy has been travelling again, which always puts me out of sorts. Also, our Cleo-shmeo (we have a huge array of nicknames for our cats) is having intesitnal problems like she had last year...while we know better what to look for, and perhaps how to fix it ourselves (so far, so good, I must say) there is just the added stress of being the only one home to deal with it - the medicating, the monitoring, and the breath holding dread when I can't find her in any of her usual haunts.
I was looking forward to but sort of dreading today. We were invited to a birthday party for one of Andy's childhood friends - I was looking forward to having a social outing, but a little worried about going and only knowing a few people...I am kind of shy, and have a difficult time in social situations The card I drew was Divine Grace...a sense of calm just floated through me. For me, Divine Grace is almost like a secret that you carry within you - it makes you smile to yourself.
We did have a good time - lovely that it was a pool party, with this heat. The card I made was well received, which was nice too.