I surrender

Today I drew divine surrender, which is largely a variation of divine serenity.

Unfortunately, it wasn't much of a day to explore surrender, serenity, or acceptance.

I went to the gym. I came home, Andy came home. we had dinner, and we've gone to bed.

Not much was put to the test today.

Did have a very good day at the gym. Before I meet with my trainer, I have to do 40 min cardio. I spent that time on the treadmill. 6 months ago, I couldn't have done 5 minutes let alone 40 at the pace I was going. It's a pretty big improvement when I can recognize it.
Then with my trainer, I again noticed that I was running further, doing more pushups. lifting heavier weights. Again, I can see the improvement, so it must exist.

After working with my trainer, I decided to go swimming. Usually, I am so spent that I just go home and crash. But then I thought about it. I have the time to go swimming, and access to a swimming pool. It was hot and humid out. I thought about people (yes, B., I'm thinking of you specifically) who would be angry if they knew that I wasted that opportunity.
I love the water - I swim effortlessly. While running and other aerobic activities make me have to think about how and where my body is moving, swimming is completly natural. I swam for 40 minutes. The water was nice and cool, and a great way to finish off my time at the gym.

I came home. grabbed my frozen grapes and updated my blog for yesterday. I felt relaxed, and my mind was clear.

Then I crashed. I like naps.