To do step b, you need to have a step a

Today I drew Divine Committment. The idea is to ask yourself if your actions support your committment.
The flaw in this process is that first you have to commit to something!
This made me think of other things in my life. I have never been very good at goal setting. I have no tolerance for delayed gratification. I don't like waiting for things. I like planning for things, but once the planning is done - that's it - I want action. Even if I get an advent calendar (yes, I am late 30's , and I still get myself an advent calendar sometims, wanna make something of it?) I actually consider it a huge personal triumph if I manage to eat all the chocolates on the appointed day, and not all at once, or borrowing ahead by a few days. I put off, with too much ease things that I don't want to do, and am all to eager to do what I want to now.
So, homework (which I never did when I was in school, hope it can change now) is to figure out what I want to commit too...then I will be ready for Divine Committment the next time it comes around.

Divine Grace

I pulled out my deck this morning...been some time since I had done that. I have been feeling quite isolated and disconnected lately...part of it I know is because Andy has been travelling again, which always puts me out of sorts. Also, our Cleo-shmeo (we have a huge array of nicknames for our cats) is having intesitnal problems like she had last year...while we know better what to look for, and perhaps how to fix it ourselves (so far, so good, I must say) there is just the added stress of being the only one home to deal with it - the medicating, the monitoring, and the breath holding dread when I can't find her in any of her usual haunts.
I was looking forward to but sort of dreading today. We were invited to a birthday party for one of Andy's childhood friends - I was looking forward to having a social outing, but a little worried about going and only knowing a few people...I am kind of shy, and have a difficult time in social situations The card I drew was Divine Grace...a sense of calm just floated through me. For me, Divine Grace is almost like a secret that you carry within you - it makes you smile to yourself.
We did have a good time - lovely that it was a pool party, with this heat. The card I made was well received, which was nice too.

Working on my weaknesses

Today I drew "Divine Will". That was a good one for me to concentrate on today, as I faced day 2 on the job. Well, "faced" is maybe the wrong word...it has a negative connotation, and I am enjoying my job.
One weakness I have is not listening, or interrupting. But not trying to interrupt in a rude way, just trying to provide words when they are pausing. But that involves me providing them with the word I think they want, which might not even be the case. I am trying really hard to just listen.
I am also trying to not make judgements...it's hard, I think it's something we all do. We base entire relationships, or the tone of relationships at least based on 1st impressions. I'm trying to just take all reactions, looks, comments but not make judgement. If that makes sense.

I think this has been a good card to help me focus on the fresh start that I want at this company.

Fresh start

I started my new job this morning. I had enough time to draw a card this morning, and I drew divine gratitude.

I am grateful for having a new job, for a new start, new people, no negativity....
I am grateful for chances to express my creativity (did several challenges for National Scrapbook Day...this is not related for the job).
I am grateful for beautiful summer like days.
I am grateful for hour long lunches that will allow for walks during this beautiful weather!!

Divine Gratitude

I am grateful for:
1) Spring finally being here
2) Smell for freshly cut grass
3) We have a condo, so I didn't have to cut the grass myself
4) First birthdays (shout out to Nay-nay)
5) Hubby is home, even if it is for just one night

The plan comes together....

Today was divine consciousness. That has been playing a large role in my life lately, as I have been doing a job search. I've applied for a handful of jobs, and have had 3 interviews. The first job, I was excited about. The second, well, it would have been a paycheque, and the third...well, at the interview I said I would be interested in coming in to volunteer if I didn't get hired. The job was just what I wanted, the the company is one that I believe in, the company culture is amazing. Ohhh I wanted that job. And I got it. It pays a little less than what I was hoping for, but it seems like a small price to pay in light of everything else.
Job searching can be so frustrating and disheartening. Especially when you are trying to break out of a mold. Trying to get someone to give you that chance. to see between the lines on your resume. I was so unhappy with my last job, really feeling that I wasn't contributing to anything, on any level. I didn't want to do that again.
My sister has always said that I have a horseshoe...ah, somewhere in my anatomy. Things, especially jobs, just seem to come to me. While I have been looking for jobs, I do admit that I don't think I sent out more than 20 or so resumes. I only started looking in earnest in January. So 5 months of looking, with only a handful of resumes...that's not bad. I know people who send out hundreds of resumes over weeks, and don't get anywhere.
If I had gotten that job in February (job #1), I wouldn't have had this opportunity.

I have tried to keep in mind that things happen the way they are supposed to, and that is part of divine consciousness.

Divine Focus

Yesterday I forgot to draw a card...I'm trying to make it a daily habit.

Today I was divine focus. I sort of forgot, but I think that it was there subconsciously. I got a few things off my "to do" list, which was good. I like crossing things off my list. I often make a list just for the satisfaction of being able to cross things off. I don't think that keeping a list on the computer would be as satisfying. It would be easier, especially for moving things around, or keeping things on there that haven't been done, but there is a certain sense of empowerment that comes from that bold line, and that scratch noise as you drag your pen across the item.

I have been decidedly unfocused in my weight loss efforts as of late - just can't seem to find the motivation. However, divine focus was sent into the universe and brought me what I needed. A few weeks ago I met a woman at my Weight Watcher's meeting, and we struck up a conversation. I love it when other people seem to think that I have it all together. Anyway, we struck up a buddy system. I am not good at keeping in touch with people. I actually hate the telephone, and outside of my parents/sisters, do not very often pick up a phone and call people. So I called D. two weeks ago. That took a lot of committment on my part. Tonight she called me. It seems she has also been struggling. We've made a pact on how we are going to refocus our efforts over the next week. It's nice to not feel alone in this respect.