Divine Focus

Yesterday I forgot to draw a card...I'm trying to make it a daily habit.

Today I was divine focus. I sort of forgot, but I think that it was there subconsciously. I got a few things off my "to do" list, which was good. I like crossing things off my list. I often make a list just for the satisfaction of being able to cross things off. I don't think that keeping a list on the computer would be as satisfying. It would be easier, especially for moving things around, or keeping things on there that haven't been done, but there is a certain sense of empowerment that comes from that bold line, and that scratch noise as you drag your pen across the item.

I have been decidedly unfocused in my weight loss efforts as of late - just can't seem to find the motivation. However, divine focus was sent into the universe and brought me what I needed. A few weeks ago I met a woman at my Weight Watcher's meeting, and we struck up a conversation. I love it when other people seem to think that I have it all together. Anyway, we struck up a buddy system. I am not good at keeping in touch with people. I actually hate the telephone, and outside of my parents/sisters, do not very often pick up a phone and call people. So I called D. two weeks ago. That took a lot of committment on my part. Tonight she called me. It seems she has also been struggling. We've made a pact on how we are going to refocus our efforts over the next week. It's nice to not feel alone in this respect.

The Universe called me out...

You know those times when you didn't do you homework (no? that was just me?) and then the teacher would just out of the blue give an extension (at which point, I usually still didn't do it...)? Well that kinda happened today. While not fully being divinely celebratory yesterday, I some how managed to draw the same card today! Not sure how that worked. And those of you who might be familiar with my being stalked by "divine witness", I have changed the way I draw cards...now I just shuffle and cut the deck - easier than fanning the cards. Today I celebrated my creativity. I know I gave a link to my other blog (www.sarahprocrastinating.blogspot.com) where I have been posting the cards and projects that I've been making. I bought a Cricut in Jan/Feb, and promised myself/Andy at that point that I would never buy another card again, and Ihave kept true to that promise. Valentines, birthdays, sympathy, thank you, bridal shower, wedding, new baby (those last 3 didn't all go to the same person) Easter and Passover. These are the cards I have tackled so far. This have been a very heavy card time for me, and it's not done yet. Today I managed to get 3 cards done. I think I will get faster as time goes on, but I am still playing with things, so it takes me a while. They were awesome cards, if I do say so myself. I am really able to see where I started, and how I am improving. I like having a creative outlet, and a reason to create.

Divine Celebration

Sorry for the late post. I did draw a card yesterday, but didn't get to blogging.
Yesterday was divine celebration, and I confess that I did not find much to celebrate. Just wasn't focused

I am so ready to celebrate SPRING. Where is it already? Granted it didn't stick on the ground, but there was too much snow yesterday for my liking! All the poor robins just look flabbergasted!

Divine will

Divine will is difficult for me, because it means giving up, or trying to give up, control. Divine will is to let go of your own agenda, and follow the path that is set out for you, whether you know it or not. I don't like not knowing. I like having a plan. I like putting together a sequence of events, and having them follow through. So to follow divine will means...wait that can't even work. You can't follow divine will, you have to allow divine will to lead you. To follow would mean making the choice, to be led means giving up control.
So far I haven't been led anywhere specifically. But tonight I have my first meeting with a scrapbooking/card making group that I found. I wonder where the night will lead.

Did you miss me?

I am so out of practice. But I guess the universe knew that. Today I was divine mystery. I have located my cards (not under the bed, as I thought, there lie mysteries for another day, but just under a pile of books and papers on my bedside table). Divine Mystery seems to be one of the "freebie" cards - allowing yourself to just be open, and go the way the wind blows, rather than focusing on a specific quality. I think it was easier to keep "Divine Mystery" at the forefront of my mind, rather than something more concrete (the abstract concrete, does that exist? That sounds like a philosophy book "The Abstract Sidewalk"). It was a good way to ease back into something that should really be a daily practice. Freakishly enough, it was exactly one year ago today that I went to my first soul coaching session with Kimberly Carroll, which started this whole ball rolling...I didn't even think about that til now, and just went to check my e-mails (I don't delete anything other than junk mail), and confirmed that yes indeed, it was April 14, 2010. Other odd coincidence...when I drew today's card, I half wondered if it was going to be my old friend "divine witness", and if Iwas going to have to start all over again with that card. As Iput my cards back in the box, I found that there was one card stuck in the box still, I flipped it over, it was divine witness :) Other mysteries today...where to "Temp" documents go when you save them???? I have an interview on Tuesday, and the company sent me several evaluations to fill out. I did so, and saved them, and then couldn't find them to save my life when I went to attach them to my reply e-mail. After much searching, restrained desires to hurl the computer across the room, and a string of words that I'm sure my parents don't know that I know, I had to start over again. All I can think is that maybe I did a little better the 2nd time around. Maybe that was something to be open to today.