Sometimes God just laughs...

Today was divine consciousness- trying to feel the connection between me and the universe. Trying to listen to what the universe had to tell me, trying to tell the universe what I needed.
While working out at the gym, I conversed with the universe about needing strength to keep going on (I'm working out with an intensity/frequency that is new to me). While waiting to go into my interview with the placement agency, the request was for clear thoughts and good communication. On the drive home, good opportunities and a good match was on tap.

Me and the universe one on one allowed for divine consciousness. Apparently, conversations with real people is too much for me (not the interview, that went well).

My sister is getting married in April. I am one of the bridesmaids.
My sister has looked at a few bridesmaid dresses, and has a clear favourite. Our difference is that her number one choice is my last choice. If she asks that we wear that one, I will, and will have a smile on my face. When my opinion was asked for, and it was given, I did say that it wasn't my favourite.
When we spoke today, we were son entrenched in our own corners that we weren't listening to, or hearing each other. It took my other sister, on different phone calls to make me see that.

I wasn't open to divine consciousness when I needed to be.

Decisions, decisions

Today was about being divine decision. I'm trying to put this into practice. I was so out of it today, I saw my cards this evening and thought "crap, I forgot to draw a card this morning". Only to really, really think about it, and finally look at the top card to say "yep, I drew that this morning". Most of my decisions were about getting up, getting dressed, cleaning out the cat litters and finally taking the garbage out for garbage day.
I think (hope?)that divine decision will play a bigger role later this week. I have an interview tomorrow with a placement service, and they have a specific position in mind. It's not customer service, which is the essentially my number one priority. I am customer serviced out. The customer service well has run dry. And if anyone out there is in customer service...isn't it frustrating when you call/go somewhere and need customer service, and it seems that the customer service you get is always of a quality that you are pretty sure you would get fired if you were the one delivering that attitude. And that further drains the well, at least in my case. I don't want to just take the first job for the sake of taking a job. And yes, I'm getting ahead of myself here, as I haven't even had an interview yet. But I am starting to go stir crazy at home, and some routine and human contact would not be unwelcome. Hopefully, the stars are aligning, and this will be a good thing. Time will tell.

Opposite day

Drew divine grace.
Not embodying divine grace.
Divine snot.
Divine hacking.
Divine Nyquil.
Divine night night.

Lazy day in Bramptontown

Kicking this cold...didn't do much today. But did have a lot of time to think....
I did draw my card this morning. Divine Committment. I think that it is a good card to draw as the end of the week draws nigh...a gentle reminder of what is going on right now, or what needs to happen. A little bit of a throw back to my flirtation with Divine Witness a few months back :)
A little bit of acceptance...I decided that as I was not on anyone's clock today I would just let this cold run its course. Just liquids and rest. No medical aides...let this just be as it is.
A little bit of focus...need to find a job, so today made strides in that field. Something has come on the radar which might be a good step forward.
A little bit of divine love...resting when I needed to, eating healthy, drinking fluids....
So today was an iceberg day...didn't look like all tha much on the surface, but lots going on hidden from view.

Love and Acceptance

Last night was divine "tuck myself into bed early to see if I can beat this cold". Fat lot of good it did me - I was up until after 2 a.m. It's not a bad cold, just an annoying cough, and kinda achy. Just irritating more than anything. I think Andy brings me these germs home from the hospitals he visits for work. Nice when your husband brings you little gifts for no reason :(

Yesterday was divine love, today divine acceptance. I'm not sure if this is how it supposed to work or not, but I find that I am applying these cards of diviness inwards. I'm looking to connect them internally, and not with the big external universe. I think I need to fix my relationship with myself before I can extend this into the world around me. I've started that process, but got distracted and let it slide. Then again, it could be that right now my interaction with others is limited and I don't have many sources to turn these outwards.
Either way - I think it works.

Focus, focus, focus

This story is just too cute not to share...I was at my sister's and her hubby was outside doing a few chores. But ever the gardener, he had wandered from the chores that needed to be done, and found something else that caught his attention. My sister shouted out the window "Focus!". Her daughter, not yet 2 was standing beside her, and needs to do everything that mommy does. "Tell Daddy to focus!", my sister tells J, J promptly yells, at the top of her tiny lungs "Fock you daddy, fock you!".
Out of the mouths of babes....
Today was divine focus. It was a nice kick in the butt for what needed to get done. Maybe it's a cop out, but today, everytime I strayed, or considered straying from needed to get done, I would remind myself that I was divine focus. It was was enough to get me through a few tough spots.
It seems silly that drawing a piece of laminated card in the morning with 4 little words on it was enough to keep me on the straight and narrow, so to speak. The fact that I needed a little piece of paper to do that...that I can't/won't/don't do it on a normal day. I needed to be told!
I am not a great self motivator, at least not for things that I would rather not do. If it is something I want to do, not a problem, I can structure, focus, plan, coordinate and execute. No problem. The stuff I don't want to do...well, I don't. At least not until the very last possible moment that it can remain undone. The number of university essays that weren't even started until mere hours before they were actually due (4 years of last minute essay writing did more for my typing skills than any amount of typing classes in high school ever did. When you only have 2 hours to get something done, your fingers can fly, and there is little time for proof reading, so the spelling had better be right).

So today was a successful day of focus. I owe it to the little voice inside me yelling "Fock you!"

New favourite

Divine Body. Revel and marvel in what your body can do, most of it without our consciously telling it to. I wish I had drawn the card before I went to the gym...might have given me something to concentrate on rather than "is this almost over??".
I came home, drew the card, and was able to fully relish thanking my body for what it does for me. I did forget to dry brush like I had intended...but there is always tomorrow. But nice hot shower, using all sorts of lotions and bath products that I got for Christmas. Lovely home pedicure. And best of all, a white chocolate body butter. It is so luxurious, and smells too good to be true. It takes a lot of self restraint to not just dig a spoon in there.
After a bit of down time, I used the Wii. I am trying to do 1/2 hour on the Wii (in addition to any other activity). Some balance excercises, a little more cardio (it baffles me how my arms can hurt so much after boxing with an imaginary opponent) I finally figured out how to put a few of the yoga routines together so they created a seamless program. I do like yoga...I did one of the classes at the gym a while ago, and just felt too self conscious at my lack of ability. I enjoyed being able to do it at home. Stretching out, a way of giving thanks to this body of mine.
So I apologize to you, dear body, for the abuse that I put you through. I will try to treat you with more respect. Thank you for all you do.

Though if your body is a temple, I feel like a cold is seeking sanctuary. Can a temple serve an eviction notice??

Not connected

Today was supposed to be divine connection. I didn't feel any connection, divine or otherwise. Acutally spent some time trying to break connection. Did some decluttering today. Random thankful thought of the day, I am thankful for "no limit" garbage bad days. We are certainly taking advantage of that.
I cleaned out under the bed....ewww. I think there were about 15 plastic bottles, not to mention lots of other junk. I like to keep water near the bed, and to avoid spillage, I keep plastic bottles. I know they are not ideal, but I reuse them, and recycle them...better than nothing. Problem is they do fall, and get misplaced, so I get another bottle. So I now know that missing bottles are not likely due to Andy spontaneously gathering up garbage. The bottle has now been replaced by a nice stainless steel water bottle I pulled out of the closet. So new goal is to keep this bottle in place, and not to bring another plastic bottle up in the bedroom.
I like New year's goals, I don't do resolutions. I don't feel weird about adding goals as the spirit moves me, resolutions need to be set on New Year's. The water bottle was whim from today.
So maybe the connection today was with Mother Earth herself...a goal to reduce the water bottles (even if they were being recycled). Maybe not everything has to be a bolt of lightening consciousness altering revelation. It's good to not lose sight of the little things.

Happy New Year

I guess it is no surprise that I would be blogging on January 1. New year, renewed energy ( I hope), renewed habits. I don't know why we wait for perscribed dates to retstart our efforts, Mondays, the first of the month, our birthdays. I guesss it helps when there is a definite start date.
At the suggestion of the creator of the "I Am Divine" cards (Barbara Burke, www.luminouscreations.ca) , I drew one card that will be the card for the year. I got divine serenity.
In the guide book for the cards, Barbara quotes the serenity prayer as part of the reflection. I think the part that speaks the most to me, or I think is the part I need to hold on to the most is "to accept the things I cannot change".
What is the sense in stewing over something that you cannot control? I can get myself tied up in knots over things that I cannot change or control. I have imaginary conversations with people, coming up with clever comebacks or more intelligent responses to things said earlier the day, week, month, year, decade, lifetime. I fume over other people's actions.
Bottom line is that there is only one person I can control, and that is me. I hereby dedicate this year to developing divine serenity.